This isn't the first time that I took the gratitude challenge. The first time I did it, after like five days.... Five thankful days, I stopped. Why is it when your about to do something good or great, problems start to pour?! Then you lose track of everything. Then back again to zero. Zilch! Nadaaaahh! I thought today was the failure of my second try. Clouds again hover my pretty little head before going to sleep, a problem that I was avoiding for the longest time cannot be escaped. I was caught, smacked down on my face, booyyaahh!
I ended up over thinking and staying up past my bed time. Come the afternoon, my wake up time, I wasn't able to get up, too sleepy, too lazy to start my day. I ended up rushing to the office not wanting to be late. I was a bit restless when I arrived at the office. I'm like a mad queen running along Buendia, just to beat the time (who wouldn't be tired?! Fun run pa more!)
This challenge turned to a journal huh. Patience dear, I'll get to the challenge in awhile. Moving on, since I'm a bit out of my zone, my friends notice it at once and asked me, "Anung arte yan? Di ka maganda! Umayos ka!", yes that's them caring, sweet in a different way. So I spilled the beans.
Remember when sometimes you learn how to give love, genuine care and concern to other people, that's good right? Naaaah! Actually thats really great! However little did we know, sometimes people tend to give however doesn't know how to receive. They keep this strong aura and keep their walls high, scared of vulnerability. However you can not give what you don't have. And also once you give, there's something in you that will be left empty, that why we badly need to receive as well.
So having this situation today, I learned to receive. Receiving is more of hearing and accepting their love they want to give. My friends gave some sound advise, what to do, first step, second step, be strong, it's okay but the best line of all... "Orange, you don't need to face it alone" More than knowing that I have them to share the burden, I felt that Daddy God spoke to me, assuring me that His beside me, hand clasped with mine. Suhweeeetttt!
Another friend sent me a video link of TED talk too. How to handle stress (she doesn't know that I'm a bit under the weather, galing no?!). It was like a 20 minute talk which I've listened and I learned that we should befriend stress. Fast heart beat, anxiety, are just the way for our body to get ready and prepare for a battle. It is a natural reaction of the body who is about to face on challenges. To take responsibility. To be accountable. Scared but ready. Scared but will be willing to go discomfort to set things straight and good. I learned about the cuddle hormone as well, which we become more sociable when under pressure, and we need to do something when the pituitary gland excretes oxytocins. What to do? Be with the people who love and cares about you. It will be easier and faster to get out of the discomfort of stress. I learned that "Chasing meaning" is better for one's health than trying to avoid the discomfort of life. Go after what it is that creates meaning to your life and trust yourself to handle the stress that follows. NOTED!
It was indeed by listening and hearing the words of love from other people that lifted me up today. I know Daddy God is the one behind this. Truly you are a faithful God!
...I think I blab too much and when I thought it was hard to be grateful today, I realized the more I need to be... Thankful!
From the bottom my heart, SALAMAT PO!
- O
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